Sewage Pond#
Written around the month of Dingwei in the Year of Yihai, for an upcoming birthday.
A Wretched Life#
A few days ago, Zhang Xuefeng, who provides volunteer filling services for students, became particularly popular. At that time, Zhang Xuefeng was also popular, but not to this extent.
This shows how much anxiety there is in 2023. At that time, I watched a few clips on Bilibili and pondered for a while before posting this text on my Moments:
Zhang Xuefeng is so popular this year.
What Zhang Xuefeng said actually makes sense. If you come from a good family, prioritize your interests; if you have no other options, prioritize what you're good at.
Worrying about employment before even entering university and wanting to find the correct and standard answer to life through choosing a major is unrealistic.
But many times, the result is not the only important thing. For some people, the experience is the most precious.
No matter how you choose, if there are books to read, read them; if there are good majors to choose, prioritize them. Don't end up like me, signing a record label after the college entrance examination and doing rap after graduation.
When I finished the college entrance examination, I was only 18 years old, and the biggest advantage was that I didn't know how much I weighed.
I have always been willing to present myself as a negative example. I can even talk extensively about the pitfalls and difficulties I have encountered. I think if you can learn something from me, it's worth it.
Actually, there is a story behind this. I used to be a proponent of the idea that studying is useless. I believed that reading a lot of books without practical experience was quite wrong. Of course, this idea only applied to myself. When my friends asked whether they should continue studying or find a job, if they had the intention to continue studying, I would encourage them to do so.
I like reading, but I really don't like math and physics. It seems that I'm not smart enough to escape from them.
After graduating for many years and gaining enough knowledge, looking back, I don't think I was completely right. I was just lucky, lucky enough.
At that time, I was really brave, thinking that with technical skills, I could go anywhere. Now I dare not say that anymore, but I don't regret not studying hard at that time. People can only make the best choices under the conditions at that time, right?
Fifty years of life,
Like a dream, like an illusion,
In this vast world,
There is no immortal person.
When Oda Nobunaga encountered the Battle of Okehazama, which was undoubtedly the most famous battle in Japan's Warring States period, I think Nobunaga must have hesitated. In what kind of despair did he utter these words and dance gracefully, waiting for the arrival of fate? I can't explain what kind of meaning it is. I think Nobunaga should not be afraid. Coincidentally, he died at the age of 49.
Looking at myself, age is like a scale. Once it is marked, it cannot be erased. I have always felt that this age is a threshold. Now, in the blink of an eye, it's time for me to wait for the arrival of fate. I am neither happy nor afraid, but rather a feeling of sincere trepidation. When the hour and minute hands stop at 12, I will feel relieved and happy.
That's it, no explanations, no need for explanations.
Life is really not long, and the pain and happiness in it are not long either. We should cherish them.
Going Together to the End#
This weekend, I watched the Cosmic Exploration Department again.
I have infinite admiration for Tang Zhijun. If we consider Tang Zhijun as an ideal and the elder sister as reality, it's quite interesting.
The elder sister always says, "I understood it early on, but you just can't understand it. Even now, you still can't understand it!"
You could say this is a kind of obsession, a kind of stubbornness. When Tang Zhijun explores the universe, he is not afraid to explore even if it means death. With a stick and a monkey, he feels an immense fear of what is about to happen, but still charges forward.
When I was watching it, I felt my brain was congested. After thinking for a long time, I could only come up with the word "awesome." I was so excited.
I won't say anything here. I just want to praise the movie as awesome.
Emptiness#
Recently, my girlfriend and I both love buying lottery tickets.
Before, she would buy them and I didn't think much of it. At first, I didn't understand, but later I realized one thing: it's not about two dollars, it's about hope.
She is still very lovely, kind-hearted, and gentle.
Once I say something too harsh, she will get upset. If I scold her a little, she will secretly cry. For most trivial matters, I always yield to her.
Now, whenever we have free time, we go to buy lottery tickets, scratch-offs, and the lottery. I even use GPT4 to train historical lottery data and let GPT predict for me.
But until now, we haven't even won a small prize.
She has good luck, often winning small amounts on scratch-offs. But there are so many types of scratch-offs that I can't understand them. She knows more about them than I do, so I have to learn from her.
Empty Land#
Shot at the former beach.
Thank you for reading. My writing is rubbish and my language is frivolous.
Best wishes.