I hope it will be like this every year.
One#
I find this year's May Day holiday arrangement quite ridiculous, borrowing a day off before and after,
and until today, May 5th of this week, there is still only one Saturday off.
Although there are five days off, it feels quite exhausting physically and mentally.
I don't know if the person who made this holiday plan considered that many people only have one day off; in that case, the holiday is essentially gone, and can we really go out and spend during a concentrated five-day break?
It's purely a hellish joke.
Two#
I left for Chengdu quite early during this May Day holiday, wanting to avoid the peak and missing the street economy and hot pot. I personally think cities with more lively atmosphere are better. I also enjoy the roadside stalls at every subway exit, filled with various snacks, including but not limited to stinky tofu, grilled skewers, cold noodles, and fried rice noodles.
This is quite an interesting psychological journey. In the past, over in the High-tech Zone, it was all office buildings, and after work, I could only look at a small piece of sky, feeling very oppressed, desperately wanting to escape the steel forest.
Now I've gone to an even larger steel forest, where urban construction is better than in Chengdu, with long stretches of road where you can't see any trash cans. Occasionally, when I come out of the subway, I can see a few vendors selling fruits and grilled sausages being chased away by city management on electric scooters.
Is there any warmth in human feelings?
This super city consumes your time, invisibly affecting your life, and what's also stolen from me is my sun. When I look from afar after work, the sky is still bright, and the sun is still on the horizon; by the time I get home from the subway, the moon has already appeared.
My commuting time is barely less than an hour.
I think of Ma Boyong's novel "Dragon and Subway"
Super city, dragon, subway, time.
Now that summer has arrived, it might be a bit better, as the days are longer.
If possible, I still prefer to take the bus, at least sitting in the back seat allows me to observe the whole city, seeing that pedestrians and all beings are like this.
Fortunately, this super steel city gives me a sufficiently high salary, and I can only accept the changes with pleasure.
When you have the ability to do something, it becomes irrelevant.
I can't help but sigh.
Three#
The first thing I did when I returned to Chengdu was to arrange a hot pot dinner with old friends. It had been about half a year since we last met. We used to be colleagues, but now most of us are fighting our own battles. Regardless, we are still striving in our positions.
Time is truly a magical thing; I have witnessed the journey from 0 to 1, but I don't want to witness everyone returning to 0.
No matter what, I hope you all are doing well.
The hot pot was incredibly delicious; it was quite satisfying.
Four#
I visited my girlfriend's university library. It happened to rain heavily that day, and while seeking shelter, I entered the library. A teacher at the entrance called me over to sit down, and then I wandered around the library, noticing many students studying. I walked quietly.
The things you encounter can influence your behavior, and I don't want to be someone who makes noise and disturbs others.
I picked up a book titled "Life is Like a String" to read.
For me, Shi Tiesheng's works have greatly changed my outlook on life.
I read some of his other works when I was younger and thought he was a pitiful person. Now, with age, I re-read them carefully and truly experience the power of words for the first time. I can feel various emotional powers from his writing, which is quite incredible.
A person's life is like this string; it must be pulled tight to play well, and once played well, that's enough. Always keep the joyful string taut, without needing to look at that blank piece of paper.
Five#
I visited the biological science greenhouse. I originally went to see an injured kitten but didn't find it; it was probably taken home by its owner during the May Day holiday, as it usually plays in the greenhouse.
This is a daffodil. When I was taking the photo, I thought of a story about daffodils, which is Narcissus.
Narcissus (Greek: Νάρκισσος, literally "daffodil") is a handsome and proud youth in Greek mythology. He fell in love with his own reflection and eventually turned into a daffodil. One day, Narcissus discovered his reflection in the water, but he did not realize it was himself. Infatuated and unable to extricate himself, he eventually drowned while seeking to embrace his reflection. The gods, out of sympathy, transformed him into a daffodil after his death.
Greek mythology is quite interesting; I have read quite a few stories before, but I only remember bits and pieces.
Six#
This is a cat tank, and it's a cat that bites people from time to time. According to passersby, it occasionally bites a couple of people who touch it just for fun, and some have already gotten rabies shots.
The cat's personality is quite strange; it might be purring one moment and then suddenly turn around to bite your hand the next.
In short, it's not friendly.
In contrast, this little kitten is much gentler. It had just rained heavily and was squatting under a stone bridge to avoid the rain, so it got a lot of dirt on it and looked quite dirty, but in reality, it is very clean.
Seven#
One thing I really don't understand is whether such people have low emotional intelligence or have always been like this.
It comes from a manager at the company. I was on vacation, and that night around eight o'clock, she sent me a WeChat message, asking me to fill out a form and send it back to her, along with two nudges.
I found it strange; we are neither superior nor subordinate, and there was no form of address in our communication, it was completely commanding. I was already a bit angry at that moment.
Because the previous work exchanges were far from pleasant, I even had to contact her multiple times to get accurate information, which was a very poor experience.
Perhaps due to the bad impression left before, my temperament is a bit fiery, but out of work necessity, I completed it for her, yet I didn't receive any words of thanks.
I work in technical implementation, and I don't want to spend a lot of time confirming something repeatedly; that's not my responsibility.
In a similar work exchange, another manager sent me a WeChat message around nine o'clock the next morning, also urgently needing something, but I wasn't angry about being disturbed during my rest.
How did she do it?
xx, I'm sorry to disturb your holiday rest, but this matter is particularly urgent
(below, the requirements were clearly stated in ten sentences)
After waking up, I glanced at the message and could assess how much time it would take to come up with a solution; it wasn't a big deal at all.
Others are quite polite.
After getting up, I spent about ten minutes to provide the result.
Regardless of gender or appearance, I think if something needs to disturb someone during non-working hours, at least it should come with a polite address, right?
People shouldn't, at least, be so impolite.
Eight#
Accompanied by my girlfriend, I went to the Chengdu Blood Center for the first time to donate blood, 200cc~~
The facilities are complete, and it's quite spacious inside. That afternoon, there were quite a few people donating blood, and the needle was quite thick.
The nurse was very quick with the needle; I barely noticed when my arm hurt, and the needle was already in.
It took about ten minutes, and it was quick. Watching the blood bag fill up was quite psychologically stressful.
Nine#
I took an MBTI personality test, and my result was INFP—A
Mediator personality
I searched online and found that many people criticize it as a useless personality created by God for amusement. I don't think it's a big deal; this is similar to astrology.
Mysterious and profound.
People with INFP-A personality typically have the following strengths and characteristics:
Independence: INFP-A individuals usually see themselves as independent beings who prefer to make decisions based on their inner feelings and intuition. They dislike following traditions and constraints and wish to express their uniqueness.
Creativity: INFP-A individuals possess rich creativity and are very interested in art and culture. They can use their creativity to shape the world and provide inspiration and guidance to others.
Sensitivity: INFP-A individuals are usually very sensitive and attentive to the emotions and feelings of others. They are good at listening to others' needs and often consider multiple factors when dealing with complex issues.
Commitment to personal beliefs and values: INFP-A individuals place great importance on their personal beliefs and values and strive to practice these beliefs in their lives. They continuously explore their own principles and meanings and incorporate these thoughts into their daily lives and actions.
Adaptability: INFP-A individuals can adapt well to changes and challenges in their environment, demonstrating flexibility and adaptability. They can quickly adjust and learn in new environments and master new skills and knowledge.
Of course, the INFP-A personality also has some shortcomings and areas for improvement. For example, they may be overly sensitive or passive when facing challenges and conflicts, and their introverted nature may cause them to miss some interpersonal relationship opportunities. However, as long as INFP-A individuals can discover their strengths and work hard to overcome their weaknesses, they can become very valuable people.
I think, personally, some parts are quite accurate.
1. I have my own ideas
2. I don't care about others' opinions
3. I think a lot, but I won't easily fall into emotional turmoil
4. I'm quite rational and consider things optimistically.
I won't determine what kind of person I am based on some tests; all I do is live fiercely and fully.
I believe that abstraction and deconstructionism better suit my introduction.
Ten#
This holiday was quite enjoyable; I wish everyone well.
Treat others' suspicious gazes like flickering ghost fires,
boldly walk your night road.
—— Shi Tiesheng, "Fragments of Illness"